Look over there! An update!

Sorry folks, I just haven't felt like updating in a while. I've been fairly incommunicado with the outside world. I think I use that term purposefully.

I've been feeling kind of useless lately. Church yesterday kind of hit on it again. We talked about evangelism at church and the pastor asked us to write down the names of a few of our non-Christian friends so we would start remembering to pray for them on a regular basis. I couldn't really think of any friends that I talk to on a regular basis that are not Christians. Is that sad? I've been feeling like it is.

But then again, it might just be another way of my subconscious trying to find as many excuses as I can to get out of Cornerstone (no offense). I really like it here, but I feel like there's no way I can do what I want to eventually do here.

I'm really confused. Can you tell?

The hardest part is keeping God number one. At Evensong last night, I had the thought that maybe I've been idolizing my career decision. It's on my mind constantly. If I had God on my mind a quarter as much of the time as I spend worrying about what I'm going to do with my life, my walk with Him would be much closer. I have to learn to let go of this worry. The problem is that whenever I let go, I feel like it's just a waiting game for God to tell me what his plan is. I don't think that's how God works. He's not just going to reveal it to me one day during my quiet time, He's going to engineer my life so that it is clear. I think. But how do we know when it is God engineering our lives toward a certain path instead of ourselves?

I think that's quite enough questions for today. I need to go do some more homework.

To be, or not to be, that is the question

I'm at a really awkward point in my life right now. I have no real short term assignments to do, but the research paper has finally been assigned. I could either work on that long term assignment or I could do nothing. Oh, the indecision.

Is it Saturday yet? I'm really tired of one acts. And tonight, right after rehearsal, I have a group interview for leadership next year. I'm not really in the mood to go to a group interview about leading Cornerstone when I'm not sure I'll even be at Cornerstone.

Oh, well.

Homework time...

Hello my baby, hello my darling, hello my clementiiiiiinne!

I'm watching the Music Man right now and I'm feeling the urge to be in a musical.

In other news, I just got a call from my neighbor in New Mexico. He's shipping off to boot camp next week for the Marines. Then, he's coming back and getting engaged. Then, he's gonna get married some time early summer. Weird... I'm very happy for him. His life wasn't really going anywhere in particular, so this will give him some direction. The marriage thing I'm not too sure about, but hey.

Back to the Music Man.

Sometimes I sits and thinks, and sometimes I just sits

So here I am at Honors with no professor... You'd think that if they wanted it to be a priority for us they would at least show up... We're suppposed to be talking about Medea, but nobody but Gillian seems to be in the mood without our Prof.

That's it.